Sleepless Guardian

O how i yearn for a world
one without death an sadness
one that i could truly smile
O what a dream that would be! 


Yet i live in such a world
that i cannot fall to sleep,
theres too many ones i protect
to fall asleep for an eternity


A price on my head for caring
protecting those in who need it,
Yet rarely finding peace within 
my own thoughts, selfish arent i?


I, myself am an angel yet a demon 
A simple flip of a coin determines 
who will deserve help from the angel
or feel the wrath of the demon within


The darkness within me ever so great
yet the love in me keeps it at bay
helping those who deserve the help
yet squashing those who get in my way


I remain the ever awake guardian
even in such times against my will
sworn to protect those i love 
destroying those of which i hate


Will i ever be free of my own curse?
or simply toil away until all is lost?
Only time itself will tell the tale of
the guardian looking for eternal peace

Lost In A Unknown World

I sit here looking upon the stars
hoping for some sort of answer
i have no drive to push forward
day by day i change who i once was


I realize sitting alone in the dark
may seem frightening to some of us
yet it gives you a chance to reflect
even tho you may still find no answers


I once had a fire like burning drive 
one that kept me doing day n night 
now i simply toil away from the pain
sitting in darkness with my thoughts


Sleeping seems to be my only freedom 
from the thoughts within my own head
constantly searching for the right path
yet finding millions of wrong ones instead


Is it possible for me to find my own path?
What will bring back that burning drive,
that i once held so deeply in my own heart?
Whom or what will save me, from my own self?